This is not reality

by Endjoy

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released March 1, 2011

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Track Name: The Dark Half
As an object struck his temple
Time slowed to a whole note
The everlasting ring a solo with not vision
A sound without no passion
Or meaning

A beam of light
Sand on his face
And then the blood
Comes darkness then

How can you be so glad
Without the dark half of your heart

These are the tales of mine
They’re what keep me going
The lives that I’ve destroyed
Make my memory sweeter

There’s two of me
And one of you
I am the war
That marches for peace

Once upon a time
I laid my blade
across a face
I’ve never seen

How can you be so glad
Without the dark half of your heart

These are the tales of mine
They’re what keep me going
The lives that I’ve destroyed
Make my memory sweeter

Quietly
She spoke to me
“Out of all of us
Why did you pick me?”

“Because I was passing by,
You had my heart.
You had the dark.”

And then I cut her with my blade

These are the tales of mine
They’re what keep me going
The lives that I’ve destroyed
Make my memory sweeter

How can you be so glad
Without the dark half of your heart
Track Name: Stay
I remember when I saw you there
I was scared
My battery was fully charged, and yet
I was starved
(I was starved)

I wanted to stay
I just wanted to stay
(So long)
I wanted to stay
(I wanted to stay)
I just wanted to stay

They told me I had to leave
I told you I’d be back soon
That was 20 years ago today
Where are you?

I wanted to stay
(I wanted to stay)
I just wanted to stay
(So long)
I wanted to stay
(I wanted to stay)
I just wanted to stay

I wish I could sleep
All I know is the definition
The illusion of reality

I guess I’ll buy that
Not that I can go back
An illusion of reality

Why couldn’t I stay
“Cause I’m a machine?
Yes, ’cause your a machine
Who are you?
Are you human?
No, I am you

I wanted to stay
(I wanted to stay)
I just wanted to stay
(So long)
I wanted to stay
(I wanted to stay)
I just wanted to stay

And yet I can’t go anywhere now
If there’s a way no one taught me how

I remember when I saw you there
I was scared
My battery was fully charged, and yet
I was starved
Track Name: We Carry Caution
I saw a hat on sale today
Only $3.99
And written on the side it said
“We carry caution, avoiding what we really wanna feel”
Then I felt right
Never knowing what hit me

I feel a hand rest on my back
So I turn around
I see that it’s the behemoth
Here to warn me,

“I can’t take it,
I don’t want to break you.
I create fear,
And destroy what is true.”

I took it to the paying line
And pulled out a five
The cashier stared at me bemused
I asked is there something wrong

“I am not here.
I’m just another illusion,
Waiting to fade,
And you’ll surely forget me.”

And then I see the behemoth
Pointing everywhere
“You’ll never find her inside here
Shes in the next dream

I can’t take it
I don’t want to break you
I was sent here
To tell you to wake up”

I don’t know how to go on
It’s only been 20 years since the last time
I’ll never stop even though it’s been 20 years
I’ll never stop looking for you Victoria
Track Name: Glass
Glass is enclosing the outer edge
and I cant get in
Maybe we’re out of time

Roger that, we hear you clear
Nothing more can be done here
Don’t focus on what you see inside
Remember the adage: “Follow the guide”

He looked through the glass
and saw her face
Writing down on paper
and pressed against the glass
He read it out loud
“Theirs nothing that you can do, its too late”
She spoke without sound
As if the machines in her voice were dead

The mission always seemed so very clear
but now I fear
that I don’t understand
Why they leave them behind
They told me that they were not real
I told them they could feel

Close the doors and disengage
Turn the manual to the page
Two hundred and seventy eight
Hurry commander, before it’s too late

She turned away from the glass
and began to cry
She knew she wasn’t worth saving
She knew he shouldn’t try
This wasnt part of the plan
He wasnt supposed to throw her away
But she had to fall in
Her system shut down and she lay there awake

He still hasn’t left
He is looking at me
I wonder if he knows I’m a machine
She looked at her screen to see what she felt
Her eyes were hazy from the fall
The word she read was: Sad

Ten more minutes ’till the drop
I don’t understand why you have stopped
Dont you know that your fate will be death
I’m signing off, you deal with this mess

He knew what he had to do
To get her out
He knew that she had power
To break away the glass
He pointed at his head
He mouthed out the words
“Use the energy inside”
At first she was confused
But then understood what she had to do

Robot X
She cried right in front of me
I didn’t know what to do
She was stuck behind the glass

Break yourself free from the glass

She was finally free
I knew I loved her
She was finally mine

They both got into the ship and flew away
Deep in space they turned around and witnessed the blast
He smiled at her
She looked down to see he was holding her hand
She suddenly felt strange
She looked at her screen, and she saw one word:
Love
Track Name: The Beast Upon It's Head
Without the beast on it’s head
It’s just a triangle
She feels as though, though she knows
The length of the creature

Yet he smiles on
With the i set to zero
The avalanche is growing steeper
The color ten is envious

Nine can see the true
Intentions of everything
Although it needs you
To kiss the beast upon it’s head

It knew it would be gone long
It left you a song
If there was light in your voice
Honey, I couldn’t feel it

The light that I produce without you
Could never power anything

The thing was there
It had to leave through the open hole
It knew that it would
Keep the secret

The swirl could not have been there
Could not have existed in her mind
Without the beast upon
Without the beast upon it’s head

Nine can see the true
Intentions of everything
Although it needs you
To kiss the beast upon it’s head
Track Name: Anemoi
We can go to the place that you want
But don’t leave, but don’t leave me
It was not long I begged him
To release, to release me

He said
“We have work to do
So begin.”

The wind left today
It promised that it’d be back
But they never do
At least I know there’s terror

Stuck inside of this dream
She’s always with me
The android refuses to leave
Telling me all of her
All of her lies
That one day I’ll be free

I miss the wind, my children
Their job was to find evil
I miss the wind, my children
Their job was to find evil

I’ve heard tales
Of this earth that they went
Of the trees and the oceans

When she speaks
She tells me that the wind
Loves it’s home hates its origin

I woke up today to a breeze
The door was open
I let myself, myself be free
The demon was asleep

I miss the wind, my children
Their job was to find evil
I miss the wind, my children
Their job was to find evil

Beauty is the second part
Beauty is the second part
Beauty is the second part
Of my loneliness
Beauty is the second part
Of my loneliness

Beauty is a second start
The violence that breaks our bodies apart
Beauty is a second start
The violence that breaks our bodies apart
Beauty is a second start
The violence that breaks our bodies apart
Beauty is a second start
The violence that breaks our bodies apart

Beauty is the second part
Of my loneliness
Track Name: If You Only Knew
Si solo supieras
Lo que siento por ti
Si solo supieras
Todo de mi

Y te vi
Solo una ves
Yo deje creer en mi
Y te vi
Ya no puedo mas
Estaba felis sin ti

Solo una imagen
Es lo que queda atras
Solo tu mirada
Es lo que quema mas

Ya no estas
En mi corazon
Comense a creer en mi
Y te vi
Que lindo te ves
Con tu soledad
Sin mi